super zonked out
still came online though
havent been here in a long time..

was a rol's house with wai+kiat..damn funny
esp whn rol+kiat started doing ths techno dance..
sheesh!
and we were running away from ant hives and spiders and god know what else
screaming and flailing about like mad people.
haha almost died going home though.
bloody hot and weary.
but still. had fun :)
today's the last day im gonna be sitting with wai!!
EMOTIONAL.
:(
and that girl destroyed my orange.
actually it was already in bad shape
after all the doodling and everything..
she had to go and stick a GREEN staplet in my orange!
reminded me of electrolysis. you can get a voltmeter reading from an orange y'know!
haha okay digressed.
got back ppr today..was rather shell-shocked by my results
thought i'd get 40 for l1r5 or smth with all the demoralising rev tests..
totally unexpected but oh well.
math still like shit la.
so nth much to be happy about.
and this reminds me of some people
who have ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD
shit, all is unfair.
but whatever, no use brooding over such crap.
prelims is in one and three quarters week. WHEE.
im SO NOT freaking out, SO NOT dead, SO NOT predicting that fateful day when we get our papers back, SO NOT going to complete mugging, SO NOT going to do well.
fucketty fuck :(

was watching friends..was so sweet!
esp when rachel confronted ross.
season finale part1 next week -wipes tears-
haha. cant believe its ending!
and i'd like to knw wht the fuck happened to the oc
there's a new timeslot for the apprentice so thr's no oc now!?
like hello.
stp reshuffling the timeslot.
freaking irritating.

media over here
come through like a world premiere
trench coat and my underwear
lets go with this freakshow its outrageous

i think britney rocks
seriously.
and i shall announce that mark chay is the cutest+hottest guy alive ive ever seen in singapore.
hahas. do i sound like a freak or what.
but he's really cute.
ok stop it!
-zips.

- In love, In no belief
Never found inside of me
Built these walls up so high
Needed my room to breathe
Oh Baby You turn them down
Can't believe you've changed my mind
Oh Baby I saw your smile
Stay with me a while

All things fall in to place
My heart, it feels so safe
You are my melody
That's where you take me

With you I get so high
Lost in the crystal sky
You are this melody
That's where you take me
I never fell before
How did u find my door
The key up to my soul
To you forever more
Oh baby You make me rise
And never did I once think twice
Oh Baby You make me smile
Stay with me a while

; thats where you take me - britney spears

j.lo still

just came home not long ago..supposed to do testimonial (yes im wayy over the deadline) physics test today was so unsettling! :| manymany diff ans from Wai the Brain (shes gonna kill me for this. haha). studied for 13 bloody chapters and the questions only touched a few chapters. grr! and my A for emath mock flew out of the window :( i can only imagine prelims. oh God. dont even wanna think about it.
recess today was v entertaining. -looks at da mina and dinah- haha. and i realise i hardly know anyone thats not from my level. was touring the other levels' classes with them when it hit me. haha. but whatever. i know the gossip just the same. hahaha.
was studying at the forum with her ystd :)
not bad lahh she taught me the previously unfathomable cro y-gain and x-base crap.
havent shopped in a longlonglong time :( deprived kid.
but then again,
mocks mocks mocks next week.
rahh.

oh this is smth mina sent me. its damn sad right..

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

I wish I did too, I thought to my self, and I cried, I love you.

i feel like just ripping my books up and hurling them across the floor
then burn a hole from the pile of shit.
-nods.

havent done my testimonial
not in the mood to :(
can someone just write it for me..
just remembered i have eggshell experiment tmrw.
HOLY COW.
the dread of it.
maybe it'll be cancelled! or maybe i can pretend i wasnt aware of it.
hmm.
sister's friends are over..doing some pw thing.
why does jc life seem to revolve around pw? thought pw was smth we did in sec2. how strange.
avril lavigne has turned into gotchic rock chick, for some reason.
prefer her previously.

ARGH.
prelims are not less than a month away, no they're not.
I WANT TO GO OUT.
-pouts sadly.

is it something i did

me -
insensitive
takes you for granted
bad at this
screwed up,
tired.

all the small things ; blink 182

okay i chilled.
think dadeedoo is kinda amused by my 'ANGRY blog'

haha anyway.
was just really grouchy
and everything pissed me off really badly.
went sakae for lunch today (at j8)
i havent visited town for like, god knows how long.
okay actually not v long.
saw nana and .. mr wong the last time i went, i still remember.
haha.

Just like an angel
you're gonna make me fly.
Into your arms you're
wrappin me up so tight.

suddenly remember i used to like All American Rejects a lot yonks ago
where's that cd now..

ok digress digress.
what happened this week?
time zips by.
uhh, oh has oral ystd..was shitified la. the passage was filled with intolerantly EXCESSIVE 'ed and 't etc. every now and then the need for emphasis pops up and i just trip over. argh. and the picture was horrendous! thought in detail how to describe the foreground and background and guess what..was describing like, a portion of the foreground only and the examiners asked some questions and asked me to move on! like, huhh?? hmrpf. screwed. and its not like its tough or anything. so irritating! grr.
yea and i miraculously passed both physics tests.
SPEAKING OF MIRACLES.
freda kwok, CONGRATS man.
you FRIGGING lucky girl! lol
-hugs.

ok shall quit trying to rack my brains for the forgotten minor things that have happened in my pathetic life and hurry publish my post before more people ask about my previous angsty post. haha

oh, and dont forget.
THE OC ch5 11pm
-laughs.
'tatas.

i think i seem calm
but im raging in the insides.

* is fucking annoying.
* needs to stop taking her shit out on people.
* should not pick on me when shes stressed out or whatever the fuck is bothering her.
* ate my dinner and now im chewing on cheese slices. (oh and she kindly screamed at me, asking me to eat with her. HOW VERY INVITING it'd be a miracle if my eyeballs didnt fall from excess rolling or if i dont hurl out my food)
* thinks shes QUEEN.
* is getting on my nerves
NOTE : there is no word in the world to describe the DISGUST * brings me.
fuck off.

Close your eyes
Give me your hand
Darling, do you feel
My heart beating?
Is this burning?
An eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be darling
I watch you when you're sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

at daring's house now :)
and shes reading harry potter..
for the umpteenth time :|
you can have your mushroom soup and mac breakfast and blah and blah -frowns at you- keep to your diet!!
growls.
school today was damn stupid..shouldnt have gone at all!
did like, 3 math questions and mixed some chemicals around..plotted to go canteen to get iced milo but failed..and practically half the class didnt turn up! caught the macs breakfast with wai qing and xiu..(: felt so HAPPY when i was munching on my sausage mcmuffin. hehe. CUT MY HAIR! im no longer suaku kid with the shaggy+thick+unlayered hair..haha but theres not much diff i think..just not thick. dont knw lahh. oh and, happy pre-bday, qing :) another one 16yearold who can watch nc16 shows legally..
went nana the peachy bitch's house ystd..tanned at her roof top and watched friends and ate..haha. the sun was blazing and we were perspiring and we got SO tanned lahh..grr. annoyed.
imissher maid's tomato rice :(
and the 2 lazybums were WHINING incessantly ON AND ON about how tired and hot it was when we were strolling in the shade..spoiltbrats. HAHA. loveeyou both anyhow.

ok shall go off
/tatas' :D :D

think pink.

happy sunday, everyone.

im spiffing with effervescence :)
hee.

mum made the fried beehoon that she fries once in a bluebluepurplepink moon ths morning..and it was damn good. nice to not be eating oily outside food for once.
then im msging 4 people all at once, people i love :)
k shall stop sounding so annoyingly gay..
haha.

and silly yins is fretting over her essay
that silly girl. stop it! its not rubbish nor garbage. thought it was pretty good k.

anyway,
yesterday went out in the evening to meet lil aileen.
caught connie and carla
like, front row seats! fainted.
but it was okay la
ps' front row seats are the worst.
the show was quite hilarious.
wonder how these girls resemble trans so much.
especially one of them with The Lips.
whew.
ate at lips then went back..missed The Simple Life!
but it's okay, really -looks at you-



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nana, er -coughs- i didnt HIDE my gbk..it was just next to the day/date of every one of my entries..haha. anyway hope that you'd be okay..i know that you WOULD be okay, right? :) -hugs-

Out of bed at the crack of noon
Blare the music and have a swoon
I can't stop thinking of your face
La la lee la lee loo lace
I'm six feet under the Bhodi tree
With my crap new-age philosophy
Diamonds where there once were stars
I'm sitting in Jayne Mansfield's car

Yeah yeah I'm independence
Yeah yeah I'm borderline
Yeah yeah I'm California
My minds all screwed and upside down
But my hearts on overdrive
Yeah my heart's on overdrive

I need to take a shower when I look at you
You sting and hurt like a bad tattoo
I wish you'd change my point of view
I cruise the canyon to get some breeze
With hidden treasures up my sleeve
I like the light and hate the heat
But I'll lick the blood right off your street

Yeah yeah I'm cherry cola
Yeah yeah I'm Candy-eyed
Yeah yeah I'm California
My minds all screwed and upside down
But my hearts on overdrive

They all come here to find a scene
But end up girls on Methedrine
Naked on a TV screen
The dreams that fall beneath my feet
Make my footsteps feel so sweet
But your kisses are my fate accompli

Yeah yeah I'm independence
Yeah yeah I'm borderline
Yeah yeah I'm California
My minds all screwed and upside down
But my heart's on overdrive
Yeah my heart's on overdrive

:) 'tatas.